I hate sunday's..

Sundays are no longer a day of rest.. They're now days of goodbyes.

It's been almost 2 months since Mike started his new life in Germany, and although he comes home every month or sooner if he can and the distance between us seems never ending, his absence makes my heart fill with more love each and every day.

There's never any advice I could give everyone.. It all comes down to how strong both people are and how much you both love eachother and want a happily ever after.

I spent months of holidays, presents and a 'normal life' to keep putting off the idea that things were going to change and maybe one day Mike would change his mind.. Here I am 9 months after his first day in training and I could never have wished for anything different. Yes there are days when I hate where we are and what we have to change, but then I question myself.. Where would we be? What would we be doing? Would we have become so strong? And would we still be as close as we ever have been? 

If the army has given me anything, it's given me pride, taught me how to love harder and allowed me to marry my best friend sooner.

Although tears don't come as often as they used to, Sunday's and goodbyes never get easier.

I can't wait for my second trip to my soon to be home in a few weeks time and to try and fall in love with the new life Mike's going to give me.

I should really rename this blog 'Becoming a Miltary Wife' 

- 74 days and counting..

Goodbye Catterick!

Goodbye Catterick.. Hello Barker Barracks, Germany!

He's done it! 6 long months of blood, sweat and LOTS of tears on my part, my boy is finally a fully trained Infantry Soldier. 

4 and a half years ago when I met Mike and he told me one day he would go back in the army, I never believed him. Until last year when he began his application I never thought I'd see myself where I am today. If the last 6 months have taught me anything, it's how to love someone that's almost invisible, become the most selfless person in the world and to smile even when your crying inside.

There was never any doubt that Mike would make a fantastic soldier, so after being awarded the Best Recruit none of us were surprised. 

After meeting his SGT on Friday he put me back on a high, finally someone else realises.. He told me that behind every soldier is a strong woman who holds the base and support of their soldier.. Also told me that after 4 years mike gets a bonus so I can have shoes, then after 8 years another one so I can have a new bag and then after 12 years another so there's my new car! 

Just 10 days and its auf wiedersen for us as Mike flys to Germany to begin our next adventure without me for 3 months. My first visit for October is planned, providing that all is well and good his end! 

The support has been overwhelming from all of our friends and family and it has definitely made us both realise who our true friends are, and who just want to know when mikes home on leave. We will always be forever in your debt!

It's always nice when there's someone that can relate to your life and understand what your going through as much as family and friends say they're always there for you, unless they're walking in your shoes there isn't ever really a way to describe it. I'm fortunate enough for Mike to have become very good friends with one particular lad in camp who will be joining him in Germany, thankfully he comes with an amazing girlfriend who I will always call my friend, who understands when I'm having a bad day and why I'm so down and I can't wait for you both to join in on our adventures! 

Here's to the future, and here's to hoping for an incredibly successful career for my future hot hubby! 

Is it time for pass out yet?

In the 5 and a half months been and gone I've only had a few bad days.. I write this from my bed all on my own but hoping tomorrow night that will change. It's been a tough 5 days not hearing from Mike over text or on the phone. Just goes to show how much a text every day and a phone call makes everything so much better.

Mikes been in gailoch head on his final exercise and I can't believe we're so close to the finish line. 

I'm having a bad day, no motivation no nothing just on a constant go slow and utterly exhausted.

It doesn't matter that if he's home this weekend that I'll hardly see him due to work, all that matters is when I get home I know he'll be there waiting.

Every time I look down at my hand it makes me realise that I'm the luckiest girl alive and my prince is soon to become my king! 

Time for an early night so that tomorrow comes sooner. 

I can't thank everyone enough for support and positive wishes that we've both had over this time. And I'm sure that from September to Christmas it's going to be an even bigger challenge, but I've got a positive head on.. I would have done 6 months so I can do just 3 and then I get to spend the rest of my life with him.

Love you all xx

Chapter one is almost complete..

Wow, it feels like only yesterday that I was sat in the car dropping my then boyfriend off at Catterick. Here we are just 3 weeks left and I'll be making the journey back up there to see him pass out. We've gone from strength to strength and words cannot describe how proud I am of him.

This journey seemed like my worse nightmare and now it's nearly complete and we're ready to start chapter two. 

We sat and had a conversation for the first time in 5 months at the weekend about what he's actually learnt and what our future holds.

I feel incredibly humbled and lucky that I have the opportunity to go onto the next step of mikes life with him as his wife and get ready to make many more happy memories.. Not everyone gets the chance to be with their loved ones when they're posted abroad.

With just 2 weeks of leave between pass out and being sent to batallion it's going to be so overwhelming. I'm hoping to go and visit every month the place that I'll be calling home for 3 years and then before we know it it'll be Christmas and then our big day. 

Mixed with working a lot and wedding planning I've rarely had 5 minutes to myself to sit and think about what's what, all I know is I wish I could fast forward to January now, no more just spending a weekend visiting but actually waking up together every day and being able to sit down and have dinner together. 

My next blog will probably be just after pass out 

❤️❤️

I'm on one whirlwind adventure

It's been a heck of a longtime since I've last blogged to you all!

My life has just been one big whirlwind adventure! Soldier boys had his 2 weeks leave and is home most weekends. As I write this I'm having a nice deserved soak in the bath while he's fast asleep next door catching up on some sleep.

Still trying to get my head around the fact he only works Monday-Friday! Most weekends are spent visiting back home but this week he has a long weekend, came home last night and goes back Sunday.

Just 56 days until Mike passes out of Catterick as a fully trained soldier of the Princess of Wales Regiment! It feels just like yesterday that we took him to Yorkshire and dropped him off and I was writing my first blog..

Much to my surprise on Saturday 30th May, the last evening of Mikes leave we went for 'the last supper' and Mike got down on one knee and proposed! Here we are 2nd July the wedding is booked, bridesmaid dresses hanging beautifully in my wardrobe and my wedding dress on order, hopefully due to be delivered in November! Roll on 15th January when I get to marry my best friend and start the new chapter in our lives together.

I'm still working every hour that God gives but ready for some family time next weekend as I stand with my beautiful cousin and watch her marry the man she loves! Alfie bums now 6 months, almost crawling and has his two bottom teethy pegs!

I promise to now keep up to scratch with the blogging.. The only was is up! 

I'M BACK

It's been a while since I've posted but life's just swept me off my feet recently..

Times going so fast and it's hard to believe mikes been away for 3 months now (we're half way!)

Although he's home most weekends when he can be I still miss coming home to him everyday, I miss washing his uniform, cooking him dinner and running his baths.

A week Friday and he's home for 2 weeks so time to get back into some form of routine.

It looks like my home for the next 4 years will be Paderborn, Germany - although I'm nervous about upping sticks and moving away and becoming an expat I couldn't be more excited for this new adventure. 

Works go, go, go at the moment and preparations are in full swing for becoming a bridesmaid for my cousins wedding. So excited and I wish it would hurry up already! First things first is the hen do.. Which is a surprise!

Alfie's getting so big and every day he's changing, it's not going to be long and he'll be walking, talking and running riot!

Life's good and there are so many excited things coming up in the future..

If this isn't love.. Tell me what it is?

Doesn't time fly?

It's that time.. AGAIN!

Waiting to hear if chaps has been given his leave, can't believe he's been in for 7 weeks now and thursday is his passing in parade and he gets his beret!

I'm so excited to spend 4 days with him and not have to worry about going to work the next day and losing special time!

The last weeks been real tough, the 7 weeks have flown past but this last week has dragged so much, we've both had a shit week and I'm determined to keep positive this week and exclude all negativity. I'm keeping busy when I'm not working and trying to spend as much time with family as I can. Alfie bums teething, Tyler's starting pre-school and there's another baby coming into the family (no, not us!) 

I've had a fair few inches cut off my hair, and I love it! Ready for a new season and a new look and most importantly no more hair in the face for the boy! 

I'm having my bridesmaid dress fitted at the weekend for my beautiful cousins wedding, I'm so excited I could burst! Little does Mike know a day of his leave is going to be spent looking for shoes.. I can't wait for him to see me in my dress.

I haven't got much more to blog about today, just that I'm blessed to have so many people that care about both Mike & I, and mostly to him for picking me up when ive fallen! 

Thank god for snapchat!